Tomorrow April 7, 2006- Marks the 2 year Anniversary of my Mom's passing....the worst of this day is over, and nothing will come close to the actual loss of her- but as the day approaches I cant help but feel pain and remember what that day was like all over again.
The last 2 years have been lonely, not having my mom here to share moments with the girls and of course me and Mike. I know that she is in a better, safer place than she was here- but that doesn't stop the feeling of pain and sorrow that those of us left behind without her feel, I think of her everyday, sometimes for a moment- a lot of times more. I know that I am not the only one who has lost a loved one, and I know I wont be the last......but in this case, I am the only me- who lost her.
I think back of the times I should have just listened instead of talking, I think of hugs that weren't given and moments that weren't shared and the regret of not telling her how much i loved her and how much she meant to me everyday.....and it hurts so much that I cant get those back. I want to express in words what she was to me, and will always be with all of my heart.....
She was thoughtful, selfless, caring, funny, giving, smart, compassionate, hard working, family orientated, accepting, forgiving, loving.........and much more....
The days we have left are unknown, the time shared is uncertain- life is too short to not tell someone how you feel, that you love them, are happy to see them or how much they mean to you- trust me on this- if you dont do it while you have them you will spend a lifetime wishing you had.......dont take it for granted that they "know" how you feel.....
Mom I love you, and miss you and would give everything i have to be able to talk to you again and tell you all the things i should have when i had the chance, you are greatly missed by everyone who knew you- and the world is not the same without you in it.
In Loving Memory.....
Rosemarie Natalie Adams
March 6, 1940 - April 7, 2004
I love you.
